Dear God:

What is Your plan? I just want to know for sure. And then, when I think I know Your plan and where You want me to follow You, I want to know how You intend to make it happen.  

Because it seems so impossible to me sometimes! 

How can I pay the bills if I quit my full-time job to start that business that You have birthed in my heart?

Why should I believe that You will cure my cancer when people are dying of it every day? 

Where do I find the faith to let go of a loved one who can only be saved by You, when I know I’m all they have left in this world? 

Do You see how impossible these situations are? Do You understand how it would be easier for me to trust You if You showed me Your blueprint for all of it?

So silly I am, I know, in asking all these questions. Yet, I am certain of this – You want me to talk to You. You want me to be honest with You. So, this is what I’m doing now. I’m telling You what is in my heart and my mind and my whole being, which is this:  even though You have made miracles happen for thousands of years, and even though the transformation of my heart, mind, and soul from a despairing darkness to a peaceful light is one of those miracles, I still doubt. I hate that this is true, but it is. 

I ask You now, God, to remove my doubt! 
Remove my need to know! 
Bless me with trust in Your plans for me, whatever they may be and however You will bring them to fruition – 
even when, and especially when, 
it all seems so impossible to me.

Amen.