The hardest Truths I find 
when I seek the Lord – 
those with the jagged edges
that pierce my wrists 
and my side – 
those are the Truth 
that is me.

Me,
spinning about
in
justification
pity
righteousness
and 
pride.

Oh! What a wretched one am I 
in the light of His Love! 

Yet,
the light continues to shine,
full of Grace,
offering words to say
given through those who conveyed the Steps 
“relieve me of the bondage of self”** 
repeatedly pleading
until I continued to seek 
further beyond my self 
and more words reigned down 
from the unknown saint in the Cloud 
“purify the intentions of my heart.”*** 

There is where 
the pain of those jagged edges 
is massaged with gentle strength
each day that I still seek.  
A clay pot in the works 
malleable now 
in trust.

Trust,
an essence of knowing – 
this Truth that molds me
this Love that holds me 
will not let me go. 



*With thanks to Ted Nottingham for his teachings on The Fourth Way.
**From the 3rd Step Prayer of Alcoholics Anonymous 
***From the opening prayer of The Cloud of Unknowing