Why is there a heaviness on my heart,
a catch in my throat,
salt in my eyes?
I believe – 
and truly know – 
that You love me and
that You work all things in my life for good.
In fact,
that is the foundation of my faith – 
having experienced time and again 
Your amazing grace and mercy 
in all things,
in all times,
in every relationship.
You have never left me stranded,
even when – 
and especially when – 
I deserved to be stranded. 
So, why is there a heaviness on my heart,
a catch in my throat,
salt in my eyes – 
as I think on 
the changes happening around me,
the losses,
the uncertainties? 
My mind knows 
You 
have my best interest in mind – 
there is not a shadow of a doubt there.
I guess I’m just wondering
how long that faith will take
to get to my heart?