Disconnected.
Not blocked or buried or lost – 
just disconnected.
You are there – 
I know You are – 
and I am not afraid
or blind
or worried. 
I am not hopeless
or angry
or filled with shame – 
just disconnected.
The worst part
and 
the best part
of this feeling
is that I know 
I cannot
fix it
pray it away
or
find my way
back to You – 
that path is cleared 
only by You.
So
here I am
God – 
not feeling Your presence
loathing being 
just disconnected.
Perhaps 
You 
could work on fixing that?