Obsessed with the mess
worrying 
striving
fixing
trying
to let go 
and
let God…
…pray more
meditate and discern

OM  OM  OM

still nothing 
no peace
no resolution
no understanding
just emptiness
and
frustration…
…what more must I do?!

Therein lies the answer:
letting go
and
letting God
is 
not 
about 
doing.