What if I’m Peter – 
hard-headed and all temper,
bullish and thoroughly full of my self?

What if I’m Matthew – 
greedy and egocentric,
stingy and working only for my self? 

What if I’m Thomas – 
insecure, filled with doubt,
shaky and shielding harm from my self?  

What if I’m Nathanial – 
righteous in what I think I know,
judging harshly to protect my self? 

What if I’m John, or his brother, James – 
wanting to be first, loved the most,
proud and striving merely for my self? 

What if I’m Andrew or Philip – 
first to know and reveal to others,
then lost in the crowd all by my self? 

What if I’m Thaddeus or James the Less – 
unknown by most but there to profess, 
forgotten and discarded of my self? 

What if I’m Simon – 
zealous for revenge, justice known,
strong, but fighting clearly for my self? 

What if I’m Judas – 
unknowingly the enemy 
taken and used by the devil in my self?  

Not what if, but this I know – 
I am all of them some of my days.
I am some of them all of my days. 

His message, mine too; 
His path, the only Way.