What have I been willing 
to do
and
to say
to gain human respect?
Poignant things?
Unselfish things?
Despicable things? 
Toiling away 
at a worldly business,
respectfully present and professional,
internally a condemning judge. 
Studying, writing, learning,
praying, talking, earning,
topping the classes,
impressing the masses.
Pushed by my will
my  want unfulfilled.
I wonder…
am I willing 
to let it all die its death
to follow into Jesus’s depths?