“It takes practice to loosen our attachments to our own agendas.”
– Kay Lindahl

I discovered that line last weekend in a reading assignment for one of my classes, and it has glued itself to my entire being for the last four days in two very distinctive ways:

I have agendas to which I am attached!
Just when I think I am getting it all together, living in God’s will and peacefully interacting with the flow of Spirit, something like this comes along and reminds me of my humanness. I suppose that is a good thing. A small dose of humility never hurt anyone. In fact, without all the small (and very large) doses of humility that have littered my path, I would still be dying in my addictions and pushing away everyone I love with my unruly behaviors and attitudes. So, I am grateful for Kay’s reminder that even when I have journeyed to the place of studying to direct others spiritually, I still have my own egotistical agendas – and I am still quite attached to many of them. I am still human, and always will be. God forbid I ever forget that!

The “practice” is to “loosen” my attachments.
This piece of the statement has weaved itself into my heart. For so long I have believed that I will not be good enough to help others by carrying God’s message to them until I achieve some sort of soulful perfection. In absorbing that one word – loosen – my whole self has seemed to accept the humanness that the quote originally reminded me of, and to recognize the ease and gentleness of a soul’s growth. We don’t just “get better” or “achieve enlightenment”. We “loosen our attachments” to all the things, people, events, and dreams which keep us from growing into the human beings that God created us to be.

I love how God works into my life, through my brain, within my heart, and resting in my soul.