“The essence of all growth is a willingness to change for the better and then an unremitting willingness to shoulder whatever responsibility this entails.”
– Bill W.

I have a good friend who likes to remind me on occasion: “Whether it is good or bad, it will change.” In making this statement, she is referring to what is going on in life at any given moment. Basically, the only thing we can truly rely on is change.

I like to believe this is also true about my own personal and spiritual growth. Whether I am in a good place or a not-so-good place, it will change. This is something I need to remind myself of often. When I’m stuck in a spiritual rut and end up acting out in ways that I don’t find desirable, there is a part of me that believes I will never get any better – that I will never feel peace about myself again. On the flip side, when things are going well and I’m feeling really good about how I’ve been following through and showing up for life, I tend to think I’m never going to hit a rough spot again. Neither is true and I know that. But when I’m in the middle of it – whatever “it” is – I am all or nothing, black or white, high or low. I’m either all good or all bad. This is the delusion that lies within.

Today God, I pray that however I am behaving, You will show me all the goodness within my heart and all the limitations that keep me from fulfilling Your will for my life.  I pray that You will guide me to accepting that which I need to change, and give me the willingness to do whatever is necessary to make those changes. Please fill my heart with hope in Your plan and remind me that I am not all or nothing, but that You are everything.